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roseembolism) wrote2005-10-06 03:22 pm
roseembolism) wrote2005-10-06 03:22 pm
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Birthday Thoughts
Today I could get all angsty and mordant, with commentary like "Half my life has fallen by the wayside, oh woe is me" But today is nice and warm, and the sky is a perfect robin's egg blue. And I had a fantastic barbecue pork sandwich from the same people who catered our wedding. All in all, it's a nice day for a birthday.
I'm not where I want to be either career wise or location wise, but on the other hand, I'm married to a wonderful woman and my life is much better overall, than it was before I met her- I can't even imagine not being with her the rest of my life. My diet is not the best and I'm overweight, but I don't smoke, drink to excess, or do drugs. I'm not in a good apartment and my car is bad off...but I HAVE an apartment and car, and I'm working. I can't decide if this stuffed nose and scratchy throat is an allergy thing or a cold, but on the other hand I have tomorrow off,. I not only can't complain, I don't WANT to, for once.
One of my major goals (besides moving and getting to the point where I can afford to buy WoW- and the computer to run it on), is going to be losing weight, eating better, and getting much more in shape. Losing fifty pounds is probably far too optimistic- but I can definitely manage 25.
Also, the events of the last few weeks and months have pointed out to me that there's a void of productivity and creativity in my life; I'm not really putting my imagination to use, and I feel under-skilled and under-accomplished. A large part of my creative block it was based on my distractibility, and part was because I kept waiting for changes in my external life. A large part of it though came from my simply not wanting to invest the needed energy into being productive. That is going to change, as part of my feeling better about myself. So this year, I'm not going to make rigid schedules or production quotas- that's a trap- but I am going to do many more creative projects this year.
Finally, I'm going to work on having more contact and being closer to my friends, working on my reserve and shyness, and generally enjoying life more. Caring about the important things in my life- that's something to look forward to in the year ahead.
I'm not where I want to be either career wise or location wise, but on the other hand, I'm married to a wonderful woman and my life is much better overall, than it was before I met her- I can't even imagine not being with her the rest of my life. My diet is not the best and I'm overweight, but I don't smoke, drink to excess, or do drugs. I'm not in a good apartment and my car is bad off...but I HAVE an apartment and car, and I'm working. I can't decide if this stuffed nose and scratchy throat is an allergy thing or a cold, but on the other hand I have tomorrow off,. I not only can't complain, I don't WANT to, for once.
One of my major goals (besides moving and getting to the point where I can afford to buy WoW- and the computer to run it on), is going to be losing weight, eating better, and getting much more in shape. Losing fifty pounds is probably far too optimistic- but I can definitely manage 25.
Also, the events of the last few weeks and months have pointed out to me that there's a void of productivity and creativity in my life; I'm not really putting my imagination to use, and I feel under-skilled and under-accomplished. A large part of my creative block it was based on my distractibility, and part was because I kept waiting for changes in my external life. A large part of it though came from my simply not wanting to invest the needed energy into being productive. That is going to change, as part of my feeling better about myself. So this year, I'm not going to make rigid schedules or production quotas- that's a trap- but I am going to do many more creative projects this year.
Finally, I'm going to work on having more contact and being closer to my friends, working on my reserve and shyness, and generally enjoying life more. Caring about the important things in my life- that's something to look forward to in the year ahead.
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And don't buy WoW... you can never go back to the simple life without it. *cries*
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When you get to the end and look back on it, the important things aren't going to be where you got career wise or location wise. It's going to be who were the people who were with you for the trip (like that wonderful wife of yours).
Once you start giving yourself more time for creative projects, you'll probably start sparking some of your friends' creativity to, so you'll all have more fun on the trip.
*hugs*
Happy Birthday.