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Something to be Thankful for.
Dec. 1st, 2008 04:29 pm
I survived Thanksgiving holiday, though I got about as much done on the LARP as I should have expected from the other times I've tried working on projects during holidays. Thursday, I went over to Casa de Slothman, for a thanksgiving party that involved good company from people I haven't seen in a while. Friday involved a trip down south to SB, where between dinner's with relatives, I visited and commiserated with a friend who lost her father's house in the Tea house Fire.
In one respect it was a great visit; I ate way too much sushi (It's a sad truth that SB has much better sushi restaurants than San Jose), ate too much omelet at my favorite beach restaurant ( remodeled and rendered once again worth visiting), and ate way too much turkey in a pleasant dinner with my mother, wife, sister and her boyfriend. It was also nice to see my niece, who I am convinced is the most wonderful and brilliant niece in the world.
But Sunday, I felt anxious, and started tending toward having a panic attack for the first time in nearly a year. Searching for the reasons why, I concluded that part of it is the new asthma inhaler I'm taking, but a large part of it is that being in Santa Barbara for a long time brings up old bad feelings of anxiety. I reminded myself that no, I wasn't trapped in this town any more, that I've grown since then. But still, I didn't truly feel better until I was on the road.
Disturbing, but I can turn this into a positive. This really means that I don't feel like I belong in Santa Barbara. Where I belong is up here, this is my proper place where I can thrive. And that's a pleasant thing for me to remember in the ups and downs of my life.
Now time to get back to work on the LARP!
In one respect it was a great visit; I ate way too much sushi (It's a sad truth that SB has much better sushi restaurants than San Jose), ate too much omelet at my favorite beach restaurant ( remodeled and rendered once again worth visiting), and ate way too much turkey in a pleasant dinner with my mother, wife, sister and her boyfriend. It was also nice to see my niece, who I am convinced is the most wonderful and brilliant niece in the world.
But Sunday, I felt anxious, and started tending toward having a panic attack for the first time in nearly a year. Searching for the reasons why, I concluded that part of it is the new asthma inhaler I'm taking, but a large part of it is that being in Santa Barbara for a long time brings up old bad feelings of anxiety. I reminded myself that no, I wasn't trapped in this town any more, that I've grown since then. But still, I didn't truly feel better until I was on the road.
Disturbing, but I can turn this into a positive. This really means that I don't feel like I belong in Santa Barbara. Where I belong is up here, this is my proper place where I can thrive. And that's a pleasant thing for me to remember in the ups and downs of my life.
Now time to get back to work on the LARP!